Posted @ 7:00 pm under Health Issues | 121 words in post | Comments off

I am always sleepy! These past few days, I’ve been battling epic drowsiness and failing big time!

sleepy

If you know me, you’d know that I am often sleepy. But when there’s work, I am the most energized person this side of the planet. But lately I often find myself about to nod off. I am in front of my computer, typing away, and then all of a sudden I’d feel that I’m about to fall!

I know it’s my blood sugar. I really need to find a way to cut down on rice because it’s the only thing that’s making my blood too sugary!





Posted @ 3:42 am under Short Attention Span Problem, Unplugged | 146 words in post | Comments off

I am seriously considering taking a day off so I can organize the thoughts and ideas in my head. Seriously. I am the type of person who can’t stop her mind from coughing up ideas even when I am asleep. Ideas that get stuck in limbo if I fail to write it down fast.

Lately, I have been so excited to start something new. I’ve been toying with the idea ever since that negative force came into my life. I was able to turn it into an inspiration and as soon as I find the time, it will come to fruition.

The thing is when it occurred to me, my mind can’t stop churning out ideas for the new project I have in mind. I really need to put it all down on paper and organize it. If not, it might end up in limbo again.





Posted @ 2:18 pm under Finances | 194 words in post | Comments off

A couple of years ago, I was neck-deep in debts. I didn’t know how I could get saved from drowning. There was no clear sign of how I could pay for the loans I incurred over the years.

And then I quit working for a corporation. It seemed that instead of the fear I usually feel when I was in between jobs, there was relief instead. I was relieved that I would no longer be enslaved by something I was no longer happy doing. I could go on and be my own boss!

It was the lifeline that I was waiting for! I was able to earn more and use my earnings to pay off one debt after another. I was so happy that finally, I was no longer neck-deep in debt troubles. I was finally rising above the sea of debts with a clear view of the horizon.

I am praying, always praying, that it won’t happen to me again. I don’t want to find myself in the same situation as before. I am praying hard that this is the road to financial freedom, the same road we are all traversing right now.





Posted @ 10:21 pm under Health Issues | 106 words in post | Comments off

Lately, my left eye is slowing me down. I think it’s time for another eye check up. But I want to have it done by next month. This month I am saving up for my brother’s final tuition fee installment. I should have had lasik surgery when I had the money two years ago. I was just scared to undergo a procedure like that. Too bad. I should have went ahead with it.

Oh well, there really are more and more reasons why I haven’t been reading lately. Bad eye. Too many pending things to do. And just a tad too lazy to do some reading…





Posted @ 8:19 pm under Unplugged | 268 words in post | Comments off
piano

When I was around 6 or 7, my mom had me attend piano lessons at my cousins’ house. We had this really strict teacher who would bring with her a wood ruler to tap our hands with should we commit mistakes. The taps brought with it hurt and shame. Instead of making me want to learn more, it brought tears to my eyes and made me want to quit.

I remember one day, I had one too many taps on my hands. The red welts on my hands were more than enough for me to quit. And I did. I went home crying. I told my mom that I didn’t want to go back anymore. I knew she was disappointed.

Looking back, I realized that I would have went back should my mom insisted on it. But since she didn’t, there was no reason for me to go back anymore. My mom’s my inspiration. It would have been great had I learned to play the piano. I took me a year, I think, before I quit. When I look back in my life, I realize that it was the start of the many instances that I have quit because of the fear of committing more mistakes. But what if had I not quit the piano lessons I would have succeeded and become a great pianist? I would never know now. Much the same that I would never know what might have happened to me had I not quit one time too many…





Posted @ 7:43 pm under Finances | 129 words in post | Comments off

road-trip

I want to go on a road trip but I can’t do it right now. I am saving up to buy two new laptops. I am also depositing money for my grandma’s expenses. I don’t know where to get funds should there be an emergency regarding my grandma and I want to be prepared for it. She is already bedridden and has diabetes. I don’t know when I might need the funds. It is better to be prepared than to find myself worrying so much about it.

I want to do so many things this summer but there are just too many things to prioritize. This is the life of a breadwinner, ladies and gentlemen.





Posted @ 9:14 pm under Bottled Up | 153 words in post | Comments off

samefeather

Don’t walk in front of me, I may not follow.
Don’t walk behind me, I may not lead.
Just walk beside me and be my friend.

– Albert Camus

There are times when I ask myself if I chose the right people to be around me. I was stuck with my pre-conceived notion of who to befriend that I think I missed out on some of the really good people around. I talked to some people in high school and I realized they could have been my friends had I not become a big bully in school. Or I probably should not have limited myself to only a two groups of women in college. I could have been friends with my other classmates/batchmates.

Regrets. There’s just too much in me that surfaces from time to time.





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