Huge mistake!
I made a huge mistake in my brother. I spoiled him rotten. And I mean it literally! He grew up with a rotten temper and had this preconceived notion that since he is the youngest, he should have all the perks of being one. Which is too bad since it isn’t really that way in [...]
Inner peace
I am opinionated. That much I will admit. I tend to notice the tiniest things and it annoys me most of the time. That’s who I am. But the past couple of days, I realize that ignoring some stuff happening around me can lead to inner peace. I am calmer and happier when I let [...]
Sisters fighting
If you come from a large family like me you know that there will always be instances when two or more of you will fight with one another. And this happens to anybody, no matter how hard you try to keep the peace at home. My two sisters fought like crazy wild cats! It took [...]
Escape
I had very good memories of my childhood in this neighborhood we are in now. We’ve been in this same place since I was born. For my dad, since he was a very little kid. You can imagine the history we have in this place. But as we grew older, the neighborhood underwent several changes. [...]
Riled up
I get riled up when my dad and my sister would start lecturing me about my brother (I’ll refer to him here as Bunso). They would tell me that I was too lenient on him and that I wasn’t opening my eyes to the fact that he seems to be more focused on social networking [...]
Gaahhhh!!!
I hate any kind of tension at home. Honestly, my dad and my brother, our youngest, don’t see eye to eye. It’s like a ticking bomb when they are together at home. So whenever my brother does something that I know will piss off my dad, I am all a bundle of stressed out nerves! [...]
Frustrated and angry!
I get really frustrated with my brother’s attitude. He has so much angst in him and he doesn’t respect anybody at all! He doesn’t respect me. He doesn’t respect the rest of the family. He is always ready to raise his voice and fight against every one at home. Sometimes, I get so damn angry [...]
Dreaming of a new home
I don’t like our home anymore. It’s so messy and chaotic and if I try to get it back to shape, I will have to shell out a lot of money! I love watching shows where they feature beautiful houses. I get so envious of those homes and it makes me want to really just [...]
Wrong choices
My cousin got a girl pregnant more than a year ago. He was only 17. Another cousin got impregnated by her boyfriend when she’s just a semester away from graduating in college. I saw both cousins grow up before my very eyes. I cannot imagine them making wrong choices because I know they both knew [...]
Darn life
Please bear with me on this one as my rant is written in the vernacular… Nakakasama ng loob na maranig mo ang tatay mo na gusto pala kayong iwan magkapera lang siya! Nakakainis! Bakit ba di na lang tigilan ang kadramahan sa loob ng bahay?!? Bakit kailangang tuwing nagiging okay ang lahat bigla na lang [...]
Back pains due to stress
I experienced severe back pains a few days ago. I immediately attributed it to stress. I was stressed out! There were so many things that happened all at once that I knew right away it was the cause of my back pains. I won’t go into details anymore. But suffice it to say that my [...]
Balance in life
I need to find the balance in my life again. I can’t forever find myself going back from whence I came from. I cannot forever be in this cycle I once called life. I thought I managed to changed everything four years ago but I guess I haven’t really learned my lesson. Until yesterday, that [...]
Hindrance to plans
I wish my dad has another diversion/hobby other than breeding fighting cocks. Our whole family can’t go on prolonged trips because he keeps worrying about his prized breeds. They need to be fed twice a day. There are times when they would get out of their designated places and fight with each other. My dad [...]
A house for us
I am not dreaming of a big house for the family. All I ever want is to have a decent house in a decent neighborhood. That’s it. A house where we can all be together and still have a space for when there’s a visitor. A house where we can all convene in the living [...]
House for sale
We are selling our house. We really want to transfer to a quiet neighborhood. So we, my siblings, my dad and I, decided to sell our house and use the proceeds to get another one elsewhere. The thing is, now that there’s a definite buyer already, the hesitation to move starts settling in. I hate [...]
The worries never end
My grand-aunt called up this morning while I was still asleep. She told my dad that my grandma, my mom’s mom, is not eating much these past few days. When she eats, the food goes back up. Of course, when my dad relayed the news to me, I started worrying. My grandma is a diabetic. [...]
Tag team
My sister sent a message to that girl to stop flirting with my brother. The girl told my brother about it and he is not speaking to our sister right now. My sister was pissed off with that girl as much as I am. She won’t even say hi to us and she has the [...]
Change of strategies
Whenever we encounter any worry at home, I always feel this overwhelming need to solve it for the family. I don’t like them worrying. I don’t want any discord at home over something. Yesterday, because of the raging storm, we realized that the roof is now a bit rotten. It needs to be replaced. Instead [...]
Sigh. Breathe deeply. Sigh.
Nakakainis kapag may sinusumpong ng toyo sa bahay. Sa totoo lang affected ako sa ganong maliliit na bagay kasi. I can’t help but be affected. Lalo na when you see everyone frowning. Ang dad ko laging ganyan. Di pa naman katandaan pero sumpungin na! Nakakainis! I have always thought that the reason why I probably [...]
My brother the old soul
Whenever I hear a Bee Gees song, I am reminded of my brother who already passed away more than 10 years ago. He was an old soul like me. Imagine liking songs from the Bee Gees when he’s just in second year high… I miss him! Tears are running down my face while I am [...]
Stuck in a rut
When something’s bothering me, I cannot move forward. That’s the weird thing about me that I can’t change. I get stuck in a rut until I can solve it or find an alternative. That’s me. When I get disappointing news, or get to hear about something depressing, it stays with me. I am mostly a [...]
Entertained by neighbors fighting
In our neighborhood, even if you don’t go out that much like me, you will know what is happening in their households. You know how? By just being inside your house while they’re fighting like cats and dogs, airing their dirty laundry for the whole neighborhood to hear. Imagine waking up this afternoon after two [...]
Chop away!
I easily get frustrated. I easily get worried. I am basically a positive thinker but there are times when the negative thoughts sift in my mind without me noticing it. Placing all your aces in one basket is bad. That I know one. Relying on only one thing is too risky. If the thing you [...]
Never ceases
Worrying never ceases unless you yourself put a stop to it. That’s what I’m trying to tell myself whenever I worry about something. I remember this passage that a college friend has written down in almost every book and notebook she had… If you worry, why pray? If you pray, why worry? Obviously, it is [...]
Keeping peace at home
I should have been doing something very important last night but then fight erupted out of nowhere. I was so pissed with my brother and my sister for ruining what was supposed to be a simple, quiet night for all of us. There are advantages and disadvantages of having siblings who are as outspoken as [...]
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