Unfollow!
Nakakainis how I need to pretend to want to follow someone on Twitter just because the person is a follower of mine but the truth is that my hand is itching to click the unfollow button and just forget about the person forevermore! Twitter is a great place for social interaction. But there are people [...]
Crying inside
There are times when I want to cry but couldn’t because I don’t want them to know. All I could do is cry inside and just shoulder the burden of it all. I’ve been breadwinner of the family since I graduated from college. I sent my siblings to college and still do with the youngest. [...]
And your point is?!?
I keep wondering what’s the point of all of it. I mean what’s it for? Do you actually get satisfaction out of doing it? Do you like the fact that others are marveling at your work? Or are you just a person who constantly needs reassurance about how good you are? Are you just after [...]
Hearing things…
I hate hearing things about the people I know. Negative things. Rumors. Hearsay. Lies. And even sometimes, facts that will surely leave me disillusioned at best. My uncle’s wife to whom my siblings and I are close to has set up a make-shift store outside our backyard. They asked permission from my dad and he [...]
Pretend all you want!
One of the things that pisses me off is when someone pretends to be innocent or ignorant. I can see through these flimsy pathetic excuses! I had a co-worker who acted like this all the time we were working in the same department. Good thing I wasn’t her direct superior or we wouldn’t have ended [...]
A rant today
I just need to rant this out… I am fed up! Kung ayaw di wag! Echoserang palaka gusto niya siya na lang lagi ang bida. Naku po di ka nag-iisa! Someday soon you will realize what you’re losing. Yun lang naman gusto ko i-rant. Nakakainis lang kasi talaga lalo na kanina! Hmm…
Blatant abuse
I hate it when my kindness is being blatantly abused. Too many favors asked, ridiculous requests, unreasonable demands… Someone is demanding things I do for her. Post on her FB wall something (that I know will make her boyfriend who’s living abroad jealous). Search about a certain term related to football (because her boyfriend would [...]
So darn guilty!
I feel so darn guilty about wanting to get rid of someone in my life. Not get rid like kill the person but just for the person to get OUT of my life! I don’t need someone who will make me angry each and every time I see him. I don’t need someone who feels [...]
Aarghhhh!
The truth is… I’m scared! I am fucking scared of leaving my comfort zone. Just imagine, I get scared speaking in front of even just five persons I know. What more if I have to speak in front of a crowd or in front of people of foreign descent. I think I will pass out! [...]
Being the parent
I hate being the parent! I think my hesitation to find someone to possibly spend the rest of my life with stems from the fact that I am already sick and tired of playing the parent to my siblings. I will always be the older sister but being the parent to them for so long… [...]
Hay moment…
How come people always assume the worse in you? Or in a given situation? Hay. This is one of those days that I am so frustrated. Inis hmp! Anyway…
If I could…
If you could take back something you did to someone, what would it be? Turn against bgl, ayl and lvm. They were good persons, most especially ayl. I actually didn’t turn against ayl but because I hated the person who took her place, it felt like she’s the one I turned against from. I remember [...]
Asking for a little help
A friend helps you when you are in need. Especially if that friend is someone you consider your best friend! I reached out to him to help me with a really big problem I currently have. Just simple information he couldn’t even give to me. And I already begged him to. I explained to him [...]
Crying lady
Lately, I’ve been finding myself crying more and more. Not in front of anybody, mind you, but when I am alone or while pretending to be working. I tell you, I cry over the silliest things! A tv ad, a dramatic scene from a soap I’m watching, over a poignant story about a celebrity, and [...]
Sorry, mama.
I feel extreme guilt when it comes to my grandma. I didn’t get to spend enough time with her the past three years. I was always at home in front of my computer or out with friends or my sisters. When I do get to visit, I stayed for less than an hour or if [...]
Regrets
Regrets. I have many of this. My biggest regret is letting bgl down. Back then, I look at him as the devil incarnate. Looking back, he was a good person, probably one of the best I’ve ever met, the second best boss I’ve ever had. He’s just an intense person. And I misinterpreted those times [...]
Angered easily
I get angry so easily these days. Sometimes, it borders on being violent. No, I don’t hit anybody but the urge to do so is overwhelming. And I raise my voice. I can’t help it. Afterwards, when I have spent myself, I would start feeling guilty. But then little things trigger my anger and it [...]
Old fool
I hate how my dad reacts when we correct him. He either ignores it like he doesn’t hear anything or he would sulk! He’s 53 for crying out loud! Do we really need to correct him all the time? He still smokes a lot and drinks a lot when he knows he has heart problems. [...]
Worrying about my brother again
Lagi na lang akong nagwo-worry sa brother ko. It seems that trouble finds him even if he stays far away from it. Like today. He told me that he’s staying at a classmate’s condo to finish up a project. He is an IT major. But my gut instinct tells me he’s not doing some project. [...]
Right people
Don’t walk in front of me, I may not follow. Don’t walk behind me, I may not lead. Just walk beside me and be my friend. – Albert Camus There are times when I ask myself if I chose the right people to be around me. I was stuck with my pre-conceived notion of who [...]
Raves AND rants
Do you expect your friend to listen to your rants? Not all the time. But sometimes, I do. I don’t know, that’s my definition of a friend. Being there for the raves and the rants, right? I just find it sad that some friends feel like being there for you only on the good times. [...]
White flag
There are days when I feel like raising the white flag already. I am also human. I get all riled up and exhausted from too much worries. And then for some drama to be acted out at home… I never liked being the parent, when I should have been the child. I hate always being [...]
What’s wrong with me?
I don’t know what’s wrong with me. All I can think of is it might be the hormones. There are moments in a day when I feel like crying. I try to divert my attention. I blog. I do more stuff just to shake off what I am feeling. I hate feeling so darn sad! [...]
I am…
a bit worried, yes. I can’t help it. I will try to curb this negative emotion. There are just so many things happening right now. I am planning so many things. And I am on the brink of going back to that place I am trying to avoid. Oh well. No escaping it. Next year, [...]
I wish…
I am in that beach above. Alone. With a good book and a cold buko juice. Seafood waiting for lunch. A full body massage before going to bed at night. Alone. It’s such an appealing word to me right now. I wish I have some alone time. I wish I can afford some alone time. [...]
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