I guess there will always be that teeny-weeny seed of doubt in my head when it comes to my finances. It’s the bad choices/decisions in the past. It’s the trauma of finding myself neck-deep in debt and with nothing to my name. It’s the knowledge that nobody can save me if I there is a big amount hanging over my head.
That is the source of my doubt. That small seed that doesn’t grow but also doesn’t go away. That small seed that has been planted deep for years and will forever be in there, I think, no matter what.
It’s a sad thing but something I have to deal with. I guess for the rest of my life.