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I have no other choice but to join the rat race again. With this new worry, I don’t think I can stop the inevitable from happening. Plus there are more issues in my head that will just be sorted out if I go back.
I am worried I will end up paying a loan I didn’t get. My stupidity in trusting people is unparalleled. I just trust blindly and it’s put me in trouble one time too many. I trusted the person when she told me she’s already doing something about her loan. And then I found out that she hasn’t paid in two years! I didn’t even know why the bank allowed for it to happen but it did and I was bound to suffer the consequences of that blind trust.
I’m actually afraid to return to the race. I have been out of it for the past four years now. I know my skills will always be there. I know I’ll be the same accountant as before. But just the thought of leaving my now comfort zone… of going back and not be able to control my tomorrows… of working for someone again…
I’m just scared.
