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I don’t like Friendster that much. I get into this rollercoaster ride whenever I open it. Happy and sad and envious and mad at myself for being envious… Hay…
I saw a friend’s account. She got married already pala. I was not invited! Hehehe… Okay lang. We had a falling out a couple of years back. Forgive and forget. The friendship was already broken and there’s a gap as wide as the ocean that we can never bridge again. I just felt sad and depressed. It was partly my fault that our friendship was broken. And she was a good friend. Until that falling out. Depressed the hell out of me when I viewed her wedding photos.
I saw another former friend’s account. Eto yung kasangga ko back in college until my early years of being an accountant. She’s still single like me. There’s just one pic that I saw that made me recall all the good days back when we’re reviewing for the board exams. Made me teary-eyed.
From the time I viewed all those photos until now, I’m still feeling down. I miss them. I miss the old days.
These are sure signs of growing old. I turned 30 last August 3. I started getting old when I was 12. So indulge me when I say that I might be undergoing a midlife crisis soon.
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November 5th, 2008 @ 9:27 pm
I can relate to what you’re going through somehow. I got married exactly 3 years ago and I wasn’t able to invite one of my former good friends because we had a tiff and never got over it then. We’ve started talking to each other again quite recently and she even asked me what kind of cloth I used to wear for my uniform (because she wanted to use it for her wedding gown–believe me for a uniform, mine was “shiny”). She’s getting married soon and I know I won’t be invited either. I just wish her all the best and hope that someday we would put whatever happened between us to rest… Ganito na pala kapag tumatanda, you look at some things that happened in the past and think that they now seem petty. Hope you don’t go on a midlife crisis soon. You’re much too young for that pa (I’m 29)
November 10th, 2008 @ 12:28 am
I do not like Friendster also.
Sometimes I also feel, am I a failure?
Almost all of my colleagues before are now working and living abroad.